working on me

For sometime, I've been battling what I see as work-aholic behavior in myself. I'm trying to refocus energy away from such things as insisting that everything I do be perfect; being crabby when interrupted; not taking time off; not taking breaks, etc. I think I'm getting better at not putting all my energy in my job. The job is not who I am. In the long run, I will be with me much, much longer than I will be with the company for which I currently work.

Wii update

So I've been using the Wii for about a week now and I have to say that I LOVE IT!! There are some things that I don't like or that are a little too cutesy for me, but all in all it is great fun. I've learned through the body testing that I'm a little unbalanced, but have been playing those games that help with that so hopefully as my core muscles get tighter, my balance will improve. I like that it gives you "rewards" by unlocking other games/programs once you have gotten a number of points. I don't like that it goes "OH" each time it is checking my weight and tells me to step on the board. I wonder if it says that for everyone or just the people that are overweight? If I stay with it ... I'll find out!!

Drumroll ... It's a Wii !!!

In my lastest efforts to get moving and hopefully get in shape, I jumped off the deep end and purchased a Wii and Wii Fit. I'm excited about the possibilities! I especially like that it came with bowling and hope that it is somewhat fun. I used to love to bowl, but haven't in years because of hand problems. I miss it!

I need something to get me motivated when I'm not on the road and it's just too darn hot to walk outside.

Off to set it up!

Ow ... I say again OW!!! surgery update

I had surgery on my hand on Friday. All went well. Doc said the trigger thumb was the tightest he's seen in a long time and the tumor on my index finger took almost an hour to "tweeze" out. Fortunately, the tumor had not infiltrated the bone, but he scrapped the bone for good measure. OUCH. It had gotten into the joint and the tendon, but he believes he got it all. Pathology report should be available today to confirm that it was just a Giant Cell tumor and nothing else.

Things that surprised me

• the cast/splint that ran from my elbow past the tip of my index finger. This was to keep me from moving the finger AT ALL and trust me it worked. It weighed about 3.5 pounds
• the incisions were not straight but in a zig zag - Doc said it was to increase blood flow and encourage faster healing and talked about some study done by, I don't know, John Hopkins or the Mayo clinic. So instead of a 1 inch incision on the trigger thumb, I've got 2 inches in a v shape and instead of a 3 incher on my index finger, I've got about 6 inches in a ww pattern.
• it hurts - the trigger thumb doesn't, but the index finger does and not in a small way. This is the first day I've actually been able to even type with it. I accidentally banged it a few minutes ago and it took my breath away.
• stitches will be in for over 2 weeks - guess this should not surprise me since the index finger was cut to the bone

What didn't surprise me - my dear husband is simply a wonderful care giver - brushing my hair and even learning to braid it. Doing the dishes and driving me places, reminding me to wear my sling and to prop my hand up. Encouraging me to take the pain pills before the pain gets really bad. I try to be super woman and he reminds me that I cannot in fact do everything!

Another quote

This from a weekly email I get from a church I once attended:

German writer, Goethe: "If you treat a person as he is, he will stay as he is; but if you treat him as if he were what he ought to be, he will become what he ought to be and could be."

Powerful thought that. I know the opposite is true having seen parents repeatedly tell their children how stupid they are and guess what ... the kids become stupid.