Friday, April 10, 2009

Period of transition

Listening to Van Morrison's A Period of Transition. It's not one of my favs, but fits sometimes ... like now. I'm struggling at a cross road ... more a y really since there are only 2 ways to go. Which way do I veer? It's time to do a semi-major face lift to my house, my home. Outdated and worn cabinets in kitchen and baths. We've been thinking about updating them for a couple of years and had decided that this would be the year to do it. The discussion of what and how has uncovered a bigger decision that was simmering under the surface. Do we stay or do we go?

Is it better to fix/update the cabinets or is it time to find a new place that will be where we stay for the next 20 years? We've been in this house for 20 years. We love it and have made it our own with paint, wall paper, and saltillo tile. But we are getting older and the sunken living room that was one of the things that drew us to the house 20 years ago looms now as a possible liability. Knees don't bend like they used to or they give way at the most inopportune time. What happens if my husband stumbles on the step to the living room and falls and breaks something. Rehab at a place not home until he can handle the step? It hurts to even think about that. So do we leave the cabinets as is and find a one level house? Do we do minimal less expensive cabinets so that it will be updated so that in a few years if we have to move the outdated cabinets will not reduce what we get for the house?

I don't know the answer. I just know that this feels like one of those major points in one's life that becomes a bigger dot on the life line ... a decision point ... a period of transition.